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Thursday 15 September 2011
Born To Be Strong It's just a brand new day. As usual, wake up early in the morning, bathe and head to school. Dad dropped me down right in front of the back gate. Walked into the school, looked around, and I feel lonely again. Walked out alone to the mamak shop behind my school to have my breakfast and of course, get my ass back into school right after having my breakfast. It's already 7.15am when I got my ass back into school and the assembly ground was crowded with students. Took a reference book out from my bag while walking to the basketball court and stood there to turn pages in order to satisfied myself for being a pig snoring on the bed last night. The first paper for today, Physics Paper 2. It was hard but I was fine with it since some of the questions were to answer by using common sense. Smart right? The next paper, Physics Paper 1. Hands up giving some hands' signs or by knocking the table, answers will automatically come to you. Enjoy becoming apart of them today during the Physics Paper 1 :) Paper 3 which is also the last paper for today, yea. Done everything and if I've got good results for this SPM Trial, I'll pray :) Right after school, for the second time today being alone again. Walked out to a fruits stall and bought cucumber added with rojak source. Waited mom for almost like 10 minutes then only she arrived. Quickly get my ass into the car. Surprisingly, mom's in a very good mood today. She asked me about my studies without nagging interrupted half way in between our conversation. She asked me how was my oral and lisan test. I told her I've got 26/30 for my oral and 28/30 for my lisan. She was shocked, very obvious. But then, I don't think there's anything for me to proud with. I'm still suck no matter what. To make myself busy and forget about my past, I know it will be real hard but it's not wrong to at least giving it a try. Filling in my free time with badminton which I gave up when I was F2. If I didn't, I will be the upcoming Lin Dan, no doubt, I have high confidence in this. Compare the way I play badminton now and last time, big difference. There's a thing still under my consideration, should I just stop using cellphone, deactivate my Facebook's account, start a new life without friends, travelling and doing things all alone? Tired with my life. To some of the closest people in my life who knows about this blog, I want to tell you, lately, I'm just so not myself. Even myself been asking myself million times, who did I really changed into, but answer I found it not. Every night, no matter how happy am I after talking on the phone with anyone else, I will cry before hitting the sack. I'm now pathless and aimless. Soon gonna be lifeless. No support from family members. Daddy and mommy calling me useless in cantonese which has also became my nickname in this family. My younger sister even calling me that when she's having her hard time (period). No one respects me. So what if outsiders do when my own family members do not? The big big aunt has just got back to Ipoh, Perak. It's been awhile since the last time I met her. 7 years, awhile yea :) Can't wait to see her tmoro night during dinner with my grandma along. Celebrating grandma's birthday. Her 70th. Stay healthy always. I don't like sharing with others. When it's mine, I want it fully to be mine. I'm not selfish, it is because I do love and I do care. I don't like words that are not meant to be true. I hate liars. If you ever trying to be close to me because with intentions, get the fucking way out of my life. Thank you. Gotta get my ass ready to go out for dinner with dad before he leaves us for 4 days 3 nights. Vacation to Thailand with his friends. Enjoy yourself. Here comes to an ending with a goodbye saying to all of my readers. Till then, I will be back with the greeting of, Annyeonghaseyo :) Goodbye and have a great day ahead peeps ;) |
See, I never thought that I'm this strong to make the right decision.
AND THIS IS THE DECISION I'M STICKING WITH |